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Last year I started getting sciatic pain. Here's how it's going so far.

It's said that good things come with age, and I agree for the most part. But one thing that I've yet to get used to is the random aches and pains that seem to pop up.

In my youth I was always participating in athletic endeavors. Whether for sports teams or just for fun, hard exercise has always been an integral part of my life experience. But when I hit my mid-30s, I started to get little nagging injuries that always took some time to shake. So much so that I ultimately have had to make tough decisions for my health, like ending BJJ training.

Those injuries have largely gotten better. Not completely gone, but pretty much unnoticeable in my day-to-day life. However, I can't say the same for this new hurdle.

Getting Sciatica

If you're not familiar with sciatica, it refers to the pain that can come from impingement of the sciatic nerve. In simple terms, this runs down the back of the leg and all the way to the foot. The pain is almost like a tightening or cramping of the muscles. It feels like you want to stretch it but stretching does nothing for it.

I'm not even sure how I started to aggravate the nerve, but I first noticed symptoms after Lorena and I went to the beach in the fall of 2025. I remember running in the sand that day. The next day, I had that tight feeling. I had no idea what it was, so I asked my physical therapist to work on it a bit. After a few sessions, it went away.

In 2026, it got worse.

Looking back, I didn't realize what exactly was causing my pain, so I just kept living my life as usual. This put extra stress on my sciatic nerve and the impingement area (my lower back around the SI joint and right hip).

It got so bad that I needed to stop all extra activities (including my daily walks) to focus on rehab. I strengthened my hamstrings and glutes which helped a ton. After six weeks or so, I was pain-free.

Flare Up At The Worst Time

I was doing good up until our daughter was born. It was literally the worst it had ever been. I was in so much pain that I needed to sit down after only a few minutes of standing. However, I couldn't because I was helping Lorena during and after labor.

Our baby girl arrived and my focus was purely on her and Lorena's health. I put aside my needs because I, quite frankly, didn't have an opportunity to address it. This just added stress to an already stressful situation trying to adjust to life with a newborn.

I took a lot of Advil during that time. I also had my physical therapist do a few house calls to work on the impingement. My focus was on my family, and as a result, I didn't go for my walks or workout at all. Time, it appears, is quite helpful in healing.

The Plan Moving Forward

I feel a lot better now in that I don't have the sciatic pain. That's what two months of rest will do. However, I know that it wouldn't take much to aggravate it again, so I've been just being extremely cautious in my daily activites.

I need to start strengthening exercises again. This past week, I've started to do this on my own, but I think soon I'll begin to start up PT again on a regular two or three-times-a-week basis. This helped me immensely earlier in the year.

Quite frankly, it sucks to feel like my body is “breaking down” in certain ways that I never could imagine. But, at the end of the day, I'm fortunate that this is completely manageable with lifestyle changes. Not everyone is so lucky.

For now, my goal is to feel strong and to be doing a bit more in terms of exercise by the end of the year.

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It's getting easier but I'm still adjusting.

The past couple of months have somehow been both the longest and shortest of my life. There is literally zero adjustment period going from life without a child to with. Thankfully, we've had the help of family as we got more acclimated to our new reality.

Our little one is sleeping a little more at night, but we still are on a three-hour cycle during the day, more or less. Meaning, every three hours we are giving her food again. This makes the days blend into one another, which makes it all a blur. We do a lot of the same stuff every day.

But little changes are starting to happen which is encouraging. I mentioned the sleep, but also her interaction during play is entertaining. Lorena and I find ourselves laughing often.

Getting More Personal Time

I know that I'll never have my own time like I used to, and that's perfectly fine. I do, however, look forward to when I can start doing a little more for myself to pursue my interests. I need those things to recharge. So does Lorena.

To be fair, I'm getting a little more of that now compared to a month ago. I've even started to work out a bit at home during naps and feeding time. It's not much, and not the kind of workouts I used to have, but it's something.

We're still only two months in, and I know that these things take time. The progress so far has been encouraging. I look forward to month three and four!

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Key indicators that I am still improving.

I've been studying Spanish since 2020. Those first three years were tough, but now I'm fluent. Not perfect, but fluent. Honestly, I feel like I reached my ultimate goal and it feels great.

I don't study anymore, but I just try to use the language when possible. This primarily means reading books in Spanish, having conversations (mostly with family), and watching Spanish shows on Netflix. I also make a point to have one to two “lessons” with a tutor from Mexico each week, but it's just us chatting about life.

My progression is a lot slower now in the language. I have my habits now, and I'm not trying to study industry-specific vocab. Everyday language is more useful for me living in California.

But I'm still improving nonetheless. Ways I know:

  • I catch sarcasm. This is a big one because sarcasm is difficult to detect when you're learning a language. I don't get it all the time, but more than before.
  • I use new words. When I learn a new word, I make a point to use it as soon as possible in conversation and commit it to memory. I get this opportunity when I'm with family.
  • I've lost the fear. I don't have any fear when meeting someone new and having a conversation in Spanish. Sometimes accents can be tough, but I manage and it's not a biggie. I'm confident that we'll be able to communicate.
  • Phone conversations are easy. Talking to someone in Spanish on the phone used to be the most intimidating part of the language. Now, I can have normal conversations without needing the visual cues.
  • Passive listening is easier. I'm able to “half listen” to conversations in Spanish and then fill in the gaps. Not as well as English, but still an improvement from when I had to focus intently to understand everything.
  • Lorena asks me for the correct word. Sometimes Lorena will forget a word in Spanish and ask me mid-conversation (and I'll know the word she's searching for). That's pretty cool!

My continued improvement in Spanish isn't like it was before with very obvious leaps, but the incremental changes I'm making now are far more exciting and motivating to me because they represent the language becoming more intrinsic to me as a person.

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Diaper, eat, sleep - repeat!

Since becoming a dad, I've had no time for anything other than baby stuff. You know, the usual diapers, feeding, napping cycle. It's weird, because while it does get draining, in a weird way I also enjoy not having time for extracurricular stuff. It keeps life small.

Everything is intentional right now. Tiring, but intentional. We are trying to make sure our daughter has everything she needs to grow strong and healthy. The first couple of weeks are a little stressful as we try to make sure that she regains her birthweight. That actually taught us something as new parents.

Trusting Our Instincts

At our first pediatrician appointment a few days after birth, the doctor was concerned at our daughter's weight loss (which was at 8.4%). She wanted us to take up an aggressive feeding schedule supplemented by formula.

Typically, 10% is where it's a serious concern, so we were still within the acceptable range. Still, this brought upon undue stress. We spoke with some other medical professionals, including our midwife, who were less concerned.

In the end, we avoided formula and augmented our feeding schedule accordingly to turn things around. And turn around they did as our little one met and then exceeded her birthweight.

Staying the Course

We still have to maintain the regular 2-3 hour feeding schedule so that she eats roughly eight times per day. There are also more doctor appointments in our future.

Becoming a dad is a shift that I'm still getting used to. I'm learning that newborns require a lot of constant attention and effort. The interactions are one-dimensional at this point, which is to be expected. I look forward to the days when she starts to smile at us intentionally. Something tells me that'll be the best.

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Entering a new era of life.

Recently, Lorena and I welcomed our beautiful daughter to the world.

I'm not even sure how to put my feelings into words. “Happy” doesn't even begin to describe what I'm feeling. I'm overwhelmed by joy and gratitude, with a sprinkle of nervousness as well. I'm so in love with this baby girl. She is everything.

I'm a dad. I never thought I'd get to say that. It feels so good.

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Actually, I gave two.

A couple of weeks ago, I had the opportunity to guest lecture at the college I went to for undergrad. It was actually the second time I had the privilege, and this time it was on my favorite subject: marketing & advertising.

I get so energized when talking about this kind of stuff. I guess there is no better way to describe it other than just plain old fun for me.

Admittedly, something is kind of lost when you're having the class virtually on Google Meet, but I think I managed well nonetheless. Even got some laughs out of the notoriously difficult-to-entertain Gen Z.

In the future, maybe when I'm in my 50s, I could see myself teaching in higher education to pass on the insights and skills that have helped me in my life.

But not yet. I still have things I want to do!

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Another year, but not like those of the past. This one was focused on my present, and future.

Admittedly, I sometimes feel a weird pressure when it comes to these “year end” posts. On one hand, I don't want to write just a few paragraphs, otherwise my life seems pretty boring, right? On the other hand, I don't want it to feel like a forced homework assignment.

But, in the end, I do like reflecting on some of the bigger things that have happened in the year. So with that, here are some highlights from my year.

Professional Break

At the beginning of the year, I had a very active coaching practice. There were many parts that I enjoyed, mostly, the people. It was also fun to think creatively and help them with some big wins.

Some of my achievements from coaching include doubling the revenue of several clients in just one year, coaching a client to $20K in a single day with a simple tactic, and helping another to a 7-figure buyout.

But in the end, I sort of burnt myself out from coaching, and I wanted to focus on my personal health and well-being without the pressures that come with a service-oriented business. So, I closed up shop to take an entrepreneurial sabbatical.

Adjusting to My New Reality

On the surface, not doing anything seems like it would be easy. However, it's quite the opposite. Initially, I struggled with the idle time. It took a little while for me to finally quiet and control my mind and to not feel a constant sense of urgency.

Today, I enjoy this new pace of life. I'm focusing on my health with sustainable exercise and physical therapy for nagging injuries.

One of the things I've started to do is post regularly on LinkedIn. I've enjoyed that, as it has given me a chance to explore my original entrepreneurial passion: elearning.

I get sometimes asked if I'm planning a “return” to that space. I don't know if I'm honest, but I'm open to it. And to clarify, it would be in elearning, not WordPress.

Personal Side of Things

The beginning of 2025 was front-loaded with trips, but even after those were over, we still managed to stay busy with visits from family during the second half of the year. In addition to coming and going, there were other little noteworthy events in my personal life as well.

  • I started the year by mostly abandoning my Twitter account. Twitter was a big part of my past, but I decided it best to move on. I've pivoted mostly to LinkedIn for business and Mastodon for occasional personal posts.

  • In February, I turned 40. I'm so grateful that I have made it this far, as many aren't so lucky.

  • We finally sold our home after 10 long (and stressful) months.

  • We moved to a new area and into our new home. It took a year, but we finally finished all the initial design projects.

  • We took a trip to Sedona which turned out to be quite enlightening. I reflect upon this trip often.

  • Shortly after Sedona, we went to Mexico for a week. It was nice, but unfortunately we came back with a awful bout of COVID (our first time getting it).

  • We celebrated four years of marriage.

  • I made the adult decision to end my time with BJJ after constantly battling injuries. That was harder than I thought. I never could get going with it, if I'm honest.

  • We went to Hawaii for two-weeks. It was absolutely incredible. We embraced nature and each other. It was probably the best vacation we have taken as a couple. We plan to make a return.

  • I wrote the most important blog post I've ever written regarding the relationship between alcohol and entrepreneurship.

  • I was a guest lecturer at my alma mater.

  • Over the summer and fall, we hosted a lot of family. My sister-in-law and her boyfriend came for a summer trip, my parents and in-laws each came twice, and Lorena's entire family came for the holidays.

Overall, there were plenty of laughs and intimate memories that I cherished the past year. Of course, I enjoy the big events, but I really appreciate the life that happens in small moments, because that is where life is lived the most.

2026 Will Be Life Changing

I'm not big on making predictions, and I've sort of gotten away from making formal resolutions, but I know that this year will be a monumental year for us.

I was bad at documenting everything from this year, especially in the second half of the year. I took a step back from everything and focused inward.

But that will change a bit in 2026, I'm sure of it!

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Almost six years since starting my Spanish journey, here's where I'm at today.

It occurred to me today that it has been a long time since my last post regarding my journey in Spanish, something that I used to post updates on pretty regularly in the past.

My journey in Spanish started in February 2020 when I hired a tutor from iTalki to take me from zero to, well, fluency (or so I hoped). Four days a week I was having lessons, and outside those lessons, I'd self-study by reading stories for language learners.

I've had my ups and downs, especially in the beginning. I'd study and practice for hours, then attempt to have a small conversation with someone at the store when visiting Mexico, and not understand a word. It was demoralizing. But even when I felt at my lowest, I kept going, and things started to turn around.

The Language Started to Slow Down

As time went on, I'd say that I reached a new milestone in my language learning journey about every six months, and the language started to slow down for me. That's not to say I understood every word someone said, but I understood enough to know what we were talking about.

I'd work my way through conversations with my tutor and family. It felt awkward at times, and there were many times I faked understanding, but the consistency started to pay off.

Roughly three years in, and I had reached a point where I could participate rather naturally in a dinner conversation. Not perfect, but I wasn't trying to be perfect. I was trying to understand, and to be understood.

How I Learn Today

Today things are different. I don't have three or four classes per week with a tutor going through exercises and vocabulary. I'm fluent, and that stuff bores me to no end (plus, it would be minimal gains at this point).

Instead, I have two sessions per week with a native speaker, and we just chat for an hour about whatever. The news, vacations, life, family, culture, history, or whatever else we feel like at the moment. He's a pretty solid guy, I really enjoy our conversations.

Between those sessions, I read books in Spanish for entertainment. This is where I push my language abilities because I'm always coming across new vocab or ways of saying things. Also, it exposes me to cultural differences. A book written by an author from Spain will often use different words compared to an author from Mexico, for example.

I have a vocab list, but honestly I don't review it very much. It contains words that come up during my one-on-one conversations. Sometimes I'll zip through them, but I could be better at this.

Last, I speak Spanish with my wife and her family fairly often, seeing as they are from Mexico. I still get opportunities to learn new expressions and ways of saying things through these conversations.

My Status and Goals

Currently, I'd say that I'm averaging a High B2 level in Spanish. Interestingly, this is around the same place I think I was at two years ago. The difference today though is that some topics I'm definitely at a C1 level, whereas others maybe I dip a bit if I'm not as familiar with the vocab, but still very much fluent.

In regard to listening comprehension and reading, I'm at a C1 level for sure. I don't have many issues when talking with folks, at least when it comes to vocab and subject (sometimes their accent may throw me off as I get accustomed to it). I read books in Spanish now for fun that are written for native speakers.

So on one hand, I think I'm pretty darn good at this point, but on the other, I feel like I could be a little more refined (speaking), especially after six years. My improvements are very tiny at this point, but so is my effort. I don't push myself consistently in the ways necessary to reach higher levels.

As of right now, I'm pretty okay with that. I can communicate just fine 97% of the time. I don't get tripped up often, and if I do, it is usually due to an individual accent rather than lack of vocab or grammar knowledge.

In the end, I feel so grateful to be at the place that I am with Spanish. It has opened up a world to me that I would have never known without it.

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Just an unstructured and unfiltered inner-monologue.

I get up around the same time most days, usually around 6:30AM. There's something I like about coming down to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee while the world is just starting to wake up. Time feels slower. It's not noisy, but peaceful. These simple things have become a favorite part of my routine. The sound of the coffee machine, the taste of that first sip, clearing out my inbox.

As the sun begins to slowly light up the day, so does my mind with my emotions. I've battled emotional highs and lows for a good portion of my adult life, but fortunately I've had distractions that have helped along the way. Sometimes they were work related, or other times it would be alcohol. Perhaps it was a move to a new town, or planning trips. The distractions are a part of life. Arguably, the distractions are life.

Lately, though, those things have been gone. I don't drink anymore (and haven't for some time), and since going on my entrepreneurial sabbatical, I've found that I have fewer mental outlets. There's no work to plan around, no current trips being planned, or any of the usual life events.

I find that I need to take a moment to close my eyes and take stock of what is actually happening. The moment I'm living is often not justifying the emotions I'm feeling. The moment is far more mundane. It's safe. It's not “future land” where unfounded negative emotions arise. Such is the danger of an idle mind. But I would contend that we need to let our minds go idle. I've learned more about myself in the past few months of inactivity than all the years I spent being busy.

I am doing things like yoga, quieting my mind, and just closing my eyes and taking deep breaths. Furthermore, I'm focusing on being grateful and curious, but also opening myself to receive. What, exactly? I don't know, but just an overall disposition of reception.

I've learned that I am quite capable of love. More than anything, I love my wife. Obviously, I've always known this, but now that I've stripped away all the unnecessary bullshit, I can see with intense clarity the blessing she is in my life. I love our relationship and how it grows and matures as our marriage grows.

I also feel loved, and that's just as important. I never took stock of how it feels to be loved by someone else until I got rid of the noise in my life. To experience love is to experience a level of peace.

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After 12 years being free from corporate, I could never go back.

The other day, I was on a walk, thinking about my professional life and the path that led me to where I am now. I thought about what was next for me (though I'm in no hurry). Start a new project? Join an existing one?

Then it hit me: I'm 100% unemployable.

Specifically, I could never work for a company again. Meetings, presentations, weird lingo, forced office hours and all the pageantry. I couldn't stand them in my pre-entrepreneurial life, I would never have the patience for it now.

Which Makes Me Wonder...

If I were to start another business and hire some folks, how could I create an ambiance that reflects these values of mine, and doesn't include all the garbage that I listed off?

I think I did a good job with this when LearnDash was a small team (up to about 12 people). But when we start pushing 40, we had to do all the “formal stuff”. Performance reviews, managers, bi-annual presentations, staff meetings, etc.

Maybe it's required at scale, but I missed the early days of the flat, nimble structure.

If I start another business, I'd want it to grow, but not grow that big.

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